“I am ready for love, why are you hiding from me? I’d simply give my freedom to be held in your captivity.” Oh India Arie sings these lyrics so well that I can feel each word tug at my heart and has me almost moved to tears. Pick me! Choose me! Marry me! Anybody! Somebody! Please! The life of a single woman in this day and age is downright depressing. To suffer heartache after heartache, disappointment after disappointment; a woman is bound to become an emotional insecure wreck. Just think about the following scenario.
You see him. He sees you & notices you noticing him. You both look away and then glance back as soon as you think the other isn’t paying attention. You attempt to get a better look at this man. “Am I really attracted to him”, you ask yourself. You have to make certain it isn’t a fluke and he really is fine. Yes, he is yummy! Okay, now that’s out of the way it’s time to do some inventory. Nice smile? Check! Well dressed? Check! Are other women admiring this tasty piece of flesh? Check! Oh yes, he just may be worth a bit more attention. Let the flirting begin! The encounter becomes a success and ends with phone numbers being exchanged. Yay!
A few telephone conversations ensue then dinner & a movie, maybe bowling or a walk in the park. You notice how excited you get when he calls; you get butterflies – oh the feeling has never been so enjoyable. Being the hopeful romantic and optimistic woman that you are, you imagine a life with this man. You envision a future; meeting his mother, hoping his sisters like you, what would the kids look like? Hoping they’d inherit his eyes because you drown in them every time he looks at you. Yeah – you’re in love. It’s official – you’re floating on cloud nine. Lucky you!
Then, without warning, something happens. You don’t know why but all of a sudden those fluffy white clouds that carried you effortlessly have now disappeared. Reality sinks in and you fall out of the light blue sky and SMACK face down on the concrete. OUCH! People are watching; waiting for your next move but no one bothers to extend a hand and help you get up. You’re too embarrassed to even look up so you just lay there hoping that you become unconscious from the impact of the fall. Praying that when you awake it was all a dream and you’re still in love. Sorry honey, but it was all real and so is the pain that rest on your chest like a shipload of bricks.
So here you are all alone with your thoughts of single life (dreading being alone forever) and they go something like this:
I am standing alone on ground that has existed longer than I have lived
A world whose history encompasses endless accounts of life forgotten
Untold stories of days long lived but forever lost because no one was there to witness
Their open palms were left bare with only their own skin to caress
Their lonesome arms dangled at their sides aching for flesh to embrace
Their eyes blurred with desperate tears relentlessly searching for a welcoming face
For someone – anyone who would attempt to care
Offering their most valuable possession – their time, just to be there
Sadly, no one took the time to even smile in their direction
They were born, they lived and they died; their life a complete rejection
Discarded by those that walked this very ground on which I now stand
Alone and neglected – waiting for someone – anyone, to hold my hand
...Forgotten!
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"Such an awesome inspirational testimony of what faith, dedication and endurance can do in the life of a young woman! Wishing you continued success. I know others will be inspired by your candor and honesty in your quest to find that ultimate and unconditional love that could only come from the knowledge and pursuit of an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ! I honesty wished I would have sought that relationship sooner in my own life! Please continue to use your wondrous gift! Peace!"
ReplyDelete-Robin Hawkins, Philadelphia, PA